If I were truly allergic to bull shit
My chest would tighten up,
My throat would get all itchy
Where reliefs comes when I gulp
To scratch my throat.
Sneezes would come in threes,
Loud and obnoxious,
So embarrassingly
Where my husband grimaces
And doesn’t bless me
Because the sound hurts his hearing,
And I’d feel compelled to apologize
Even though it’s involuntary.
My own ears would get so itchy,
Fluid would make me hard of hearing.
My voice would resonate and vibrate
So much stronger inside my head.
My eyes would be watery,
Get swollen and puffy
With undertones of red.
My face would hurt,
My cheeks and bones feeling fat
And so stuffy.
My tongue would feel heavy,
And warm, and itchy.
My body would ache from the inside
Out where externally
All my muscles feel sore
From just the task of laborsome breathing.
My head would feel tense,
And stuffed, both thick and airy.
There would be this fog because thinking
About anything else besides breathing
Is excessive and I wouldn’t have the luxury
Of energy
To disperse,
Because
I literally
Cannot
Breathe.
My body
Is suffocating.
If I were truly allergic to bullshit,
With confidence I’d know,
It would be the end of me
Within a few days to a week.
I wouldn’t last anymore.
©AyalaRain