Away Again

I feel myself slipping away again
Like the slow dewy drip of a faucet
That goes unnoticed
Throughout the dead of night
While everyone is dreaming sweetly
I’m steadily disappearing
I don’t understand why
God gave me both the spirit of ambition
And the ailment of depression
I continue to clash against myself
And I feel the crave of pain to orient
To remind me that I’m real
Because just breathing isn’t intense enough
To convince me otherwise
Every now and then I feel loved enough
And it holds me close
Inside red and blue passion
With ferocity to remind me of beauty
The sweetness of existence and life
But…when the air is so still
And my room is so dark
With me as my only companion
And thumping of just my beating heart
The cold crawls against my soul
Reminding me at the moment I’m all alone
And there’s nothing and no one to stop
The grip of insanity that lingers about
Draining my vitality, power, my hope.

©AyalaRain