“And I’ll do 25 to life, if it makes me a king, a star in your eyes.”
I carve into my skin
Delicate stinging reminders
Of the reality I’m in
As the crimson droplets flow
The blurry coat over my eyes
Shred into oblivion
The smell of metallic
The rolling warm feeling
Along my arms
Grounds my very being
Into stillness
Embracing the void within the dark
Soaking in all the serenity
Of feeling something anything
When every other emotion
Completely evades me
I want to feel wanted
Adored every single moment
So not a second of breath is wasted
Squandered into subjugation
Confinement within my depression
I want you to see me
To know everything about me
The good and the ugly
And still accept my beauty
And all of my crazy
Because I will suffer
Either way it can go
Without you I’m nothing
With you at least I can find meaning
Somewhere along our road
I just want you to see me
And recognize what I do for you
And find me special
And what I do for you special too
You mean so much to me
I don’t hold any merit without you
So please accept me fully
Never be tempted to ever let me go
If you do I’ll drown deeper
A sound lower than you know
Where you can’t save me
And you’ll risk forever being alone
Don’t leave me alone
Don’t choose to be alone.
© AyalaRain
To Make Your Day Sweet 