Free of Me

Maybe I should have listened to the noise

And let him be

Instead of being so selfish

And never letting him free

Of me

I just had thought

All this time

That he appreciated my loyalty

Choosing not to leave

He means more than the world

Can offer me

And I just thought with me

He’d be set free

From his own limitations and doubts

That subtly

Eats away at his mind sometimes

Silently

I see him when he’s in pain and

When he’s happy

And I thought just maybe

He was happy because of me

But now doubt has crept in

Stifling me

And no matter how pure my intentions

He’s suffering because of me

So I’m told and even if

I don’t want to believe

What kind of friend am I

If I stay so selfishly

When he could be in the state

That he’s in all because of me

I’d rather rip my own heart out

And drown alone in my sorrow

To set him finally free

Of me

For him to again

Be happy.

 

– January 22, 2018

 

 

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