“I hope one of you come back to remind me of who I was, when I go disappear into that good night.”
I cocoon myself in my grief and disappointment
Shutting out everyone who comes by
To simply continue breathing
Is such a laborious task to abide
I’m unable to bring myself
To be reactive or responsive
To anyone or anything
I feel the licking flames of fire
And the chilling burns of ice
But the paralysis bounding my body
Is too strong to break by choice
Everyone else is sleeping soundly
They can’t hear or feel my pleas
They don’t understand how I’m stuck
Unable to liberate myself to be free
They think I’m just lazy
Just a theatre kid drama queen
They don’t understand how my mind
Can imprison my entire body
If I move something devastating can happen
Succumbing to the paralysis is the safest bet
They can’t see how I’m screaming and sobbing inside
They can’t see how I’m irreparably broken
They thought I was going to sleep
When I said good night
They didn’t realize how my torment
Arises with the night.
© AyalaRain
To Make Your Day Sweet 