Lamentation

There was a future I envisioned
For as long as I can remember
And I suppose I foolishly held on
I held onto this mustard size seed of hope
Subconsciously all this time
My gosh how beautiful would they have been
How my heart would have swelled
Overwhelmingly that my dream from many moons
Finally has come true
My objective vision of happiness arriving into fruition
There isn’t grief in this vision
There is happiness in the feeling of belonging
My hand intertwined with my love’s
A mutality of contentment and fulfillment
Finding joy in the mundane day to day
Because we are spending it all together
The accumulation of moments into a lifetime together
I alone held onto such a vision
And as I grieve this possibility of being unable to become my reality
I will keep writing so they never disappear from me
So the onesided love in my heart can be preserved
So that maybe this old dream can live on elsewhere
Developing along the pages of worlds I can visit once in a while

Ⓒ AyalaRain